2021 left its mark. I’ve talked to enough people to know that I’m not alone in this, either. We collectively felt the strain of carrying our lives in ongoing isolation when we were already tired and sad.
I’m launching a new project soon. To be honest, it’s much more than a project. It’s a very big endeavour and it’s going to involve a lot of people. I am so excited. The funny thing is, though, I’ve been inundated with thoughts that who I am is not good enough to launch this endeavour.
I hear one of two things from you after Mind-Body Healing (INside-OWT) appointments.
First, you often feel profound lightness, gratitude, or relief from the emotional burden you came in with. I love it. I light up with joy when I hear this. I know what it’s like to have those kinds of results.
Other times, I hear that you felt great for a week or so, and then some old thought patterns and emotions arose. Despite how normal this is, I sometimes fear that you might stop here, where your internal conflict is unresolved.
The strangest thing has been happening to me lately. I will position myself on my yoga mat and slowly begin to stretch. Maybe immediately, maybe a few poses in, I begin to hear words. “I am loved.”
In my last post, I talked about what to do when your life is disrupted in a major way. My top suggestion was to find support in any way possible and that you may need to be vulnerable to do so.
I’ve felt dissatisfied since writing it though. There are so many types of disruptive changes and so many ways to move through them. There is no universal formula.
Sometimes life comes in like a tsunami, all ferocity, waves, and weight. One can’t help but get knocked off their feet.
Suddenly, the roadmap of life no longer makes sense. Are you up or down? Your feet aren’t touching solid ground, so how can you determine whether you’re hovering over grass, rocks, or a chasm?
Stress is insidious, slipping beneath the surface of our consciousness with barely a blip. The process happens so fast we don’t cognitively recognize anything has happened. This is a natural, protective mechanism of the body called suppression.
The theme of worthiness has been playing around in my head lately. What is worthiness? How do I find a sense of worth when I’ve fumbled it, dropped it by mistake? When a new time of healing asks me to go deeper than my worthiness does?
“Where does this feeling come from?” As they start to heal, this is the #1 question self-healers ask themselves. They become finely tuned to the emotions in their body, and they learn to know when they are moving from a sense of ease to a sense of un-ease.
Last week was crap. Tuesday I felt like a celebrity. It was my birthday, and so many people called, messaged, visited, texted! Especially in a pandemic, that much social interaction felt out of this world. But Monday certainly wasn’t fun, and Wednesday was a day fresh out of hell. I mean, one or two slightly…